Home Sweet Home!
I am home. I am happy to be home. Melissa one of the wonderful nurses at the hospital told me she didn’t want me to leave, but I did want to leave. I missed my bed, my space, my people, not that the people at the hospital weren’t wonderful. I had some amazing nurses, CNA’s, and doctors who were helping me. I just wanted to go home, but am thankful for the people who made my stay pleasant. The whole time I was there I was in an extreme amount of pain. I was grumpy, grouchy, and unpleasant to be around me. Vickie could tell, the nurses could tell also, because a few of them I have had before from my last experience there in December. When the pain medication they gave me, even morphine does not make the pain go away then you know how bad the pain was to me. I could not tolerate it, this is from a woman who can tolerate pain well.
When I had the second surgery where the switch the t-tube around so it was not pressing against my larynx magically the pain subsided and for that I am thankful for. The put it in the right way the first time, I just happen to be a pain in the butt and so they had to switch it around.
Vickie and I got home around 3PM. We stopped at Winco’s for some groceries before we came home. We ate some lunch and I started unpacking the arsenal of supplies I had to bring home. And all the new things I have to do to be healthy started sinking in, especially when I saw the surgical clamps. I know what I have to do, it is just a bit brutish. Like always, I will do what I have to do. I just have to train those who are around me what to do in case I am not able to do it myself and need some help. Vickie knows, because the doctor told her when he told me, now I have to train my brother and his wife, and my sister Carri and anyone else who wants to know what to do. My friend Mandy gave me a wonderful gift and I am going to use the pink flower bag she gave me as the bag I keep my supplies in that I have to keep with me at all times, so that everyone knows what it looks like and will not be clambering for it when the emergency happens.
I am happy to be home. Today I am learning to do new things to care for myself and I am confident that I will be able to do this.