I have been busy the last couple of days cleaning out my environment getting ready to bomb getting rid of the fleas so I can have my home back. While cleaning I started thinking about some things in my life and where I am at and where I want to go with my life. What prompted all these thoughts in my life is the new “Invisible Illness Week” starting on September 9th and going until the 15th. The motto this year is “I Choose To”.
I first started thinking of the past and all those negative people I had in my life who drained me completely of my energy, so much so in fact that I was not able to hear my own body while she was screaming at me to take care of myself. I admit it; I was so in tuned with everyone else’s problems, emotions, and hopes and dreams that I never gave any thought to my own. I thought I was on this planet to encourage and let everyone else have their dreams. I know now this is not true, I am allowed to have my own. I am still working on this aspect, listening to my own voice and deciding where I want my life to go.
My illness has taught me how to listen to my heart and soul. I have my bad moments don’t get me wrong, but I am more apt to slow down and take care of my own body than to keep going until I am completely useless. I still have a hard time asking for help, but I am so much better at asking and accepting help than I was before. Small improvements show themselves every day and I am thankful for every single breathe I am able to take even when I don’t want to be.
To answer Rest Ministries and Lisa Cogan question “I choose to” thrive and not just sit down and wallow in my past pain and hurts, and be the best that I can be despite my illness. Now if I can only think of a picture I can take of what I am choosing so I can upload it then I would be all set. Good thing I have a couple of weeks to get down with my creative self. But I have to wait…
I need to get back to cleaning and getting ready to be bombed tomorrow. Have a great day and remember to breathe. And think about what you are choosing.