Chapter 1

I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend. I rested this weekend. I slept a lot. I can only count on my hand the amount of hours I have actually been awake. The rest of the time I was sleeping. Being tired is one of the effects that I get from the Rituximab infusion treatment. This week will be a week of rest as I recover. Next week I should be more awake. I took this week off from physical therapy because of the tiredness. I told Mike and he understood. I love that I have understanding people in my life.


The one physical activity I did this week was changing my bed. I changed the sheets to the Zebra print that I got for my birthday. I’m hoping it will give me energy as I lay on them for rest. They are growing on me. I realize that my taste is not a matching; it is a bunch of different things that represent me. I am so thankful that I got a new bed just before I had to get my infusion treatment. I am sleeping so much better.

I have been reading a lot this weekend. I’ve been reading “Praying God’s Word: Breaking Free from Spiritual Strongholds” by Beth Moore. I am learning a lot. I realize that I am ready to conquer one of my spiritual strongholds. I wrote about it a few days. I am addicted to food. I use it to calm my anxieties. I no longer want that to be where I get my comfort. That is Jesus’ job.


I have been writing in my journal about what I am eating and even things I am doing for self-care along with setting goals. I have also found someone to be my accountability partner. I chose a neighbor who runs the bible study in my apartment. He is a nice older gentleman with a kind and encouraging disposition that I need at this time. He asked me what I wanted him to do. I wrote him and one of the things I shared with him was my exercise plan and all things I am supposed to be doing. He wrote me back and asked me what my goals were; he didn’t want to know what I am supposed to be doing. He wanted to know how I am going to measure my success. I like him already. I think I made a wise choice.

My goals are simple. With exercise I want to build up endurance so that I can ride the bike marathon, walk a mile or more if I choose to, and just be able to breathe and walk without sounding like I am wheezing all the time. I want to build up my endurance on the elliptical from 2 minutes to 30 minutes and the same for the stationary bike. My goals are to exercise every single day. Even if I don’t do the bike or the elliptical daily, I can do the physical therapy exercises.  This evening I will be going grocery shopping and I will be going to Gateway Produce and buying up veggies and fruit and then going to the regular grocery store for other healthier items. I am making a choice to face my stronghold and use the armor that God has given me to use when I am being threatened. I am feeling much better. I know my 40th year will be amazing. Heck I already have had some amazing adventures.

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