The last month I have been in a funky mood. The disappointment of not getting rid of my trach because of the swelling after my surgery had me reeling. I needed to take some time to reflect and make choices in where I want to go. While reflecting I slept a lot, watched two movies (God’s not Dead and Divergent both excellent), journaled, and watched TV.
Here are my choices:
I will continue to fight on even if I have to live with a trach for the rest of my life. I can still do things. I just have to do them differently. I will also keep trying to get rid of my trach in the means that are healthy for me. I will find out more when I see my ENT on September 9th. The tentative plan after my surgery was to do corking. I’m not sure how that will work or what is involved. I don’t know if I will have to go back to the T-tube in order to cork my stoma. I hope not, because I hated the T-tube. It involved more work than the standard trach.
In the meantime while I am waiting for my doctor appointment. I will go ahead and schedule my mammogram. I’m not looking forward to it, but I know it is vital to get done. Since a couple of my cousins have or are fighting breast cancer. It is important to have healthy breasts.
I have started moving my body again. I started the interval exercises up again after not doing them since my surgery. It is a bit rough, but I know I will be able to build up my endurance as I continue to do the exercises. My goal is still to lose the weight and get to 170. I know that is a giant elephant, but the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time. I am encouraged because now I am hearing from several key people in my life that they are focusing on their nutritional and physical health. Before it was just me and I often times felt discouraged. It helps to have people in the same mind frame as you.
Atlas, I am beginning again.