Made to Crave
Now that my throat is behaving itself. I feel like it is time to focus on other areas of my life that are unhealthy. With my throat I have to maintain my healthiness by getting an infusion every six months, tracking my breathing with a peek meter, moving my body, and even making a few choices with what I am eating and a few Do-Terra oils that I am using to help me.
When I saw the book “Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food” by Lysa Terkeurst I knew that my next step would be dealing with my unhealthy behaviors with food. I eat a lot. I use food to help me deal with boredom and the changes that my body is doing with my RA, Wegeners, and Sjorgens diseases. The changes to my throat, not being to breathe like everyone else, and just not being able to move like everyone else. It has played an emotional toll on me. That is something I do not talk about, because well, I hate being negative and I hate focusing on the things that I am struggling with. But the truth is, these struggles have been a big part of my life. It is time to face them head on and to deal with them. Dealing with my emotional attachment to food will be my next step. I have some kind of idea what that will look like for me. The first step is admitting that the next diet plan or diet is not going to work. Diets don’t work. It leaves you with the mindset that I only have to do this for a few months, but the truth for me is that I am going to have to have a plan for the rest of my life. I can’t live with deprivation. I can’t live with starvation. I certainly cannot live without God guiding me through the process of being emotionally healthy when it comes to food. “Made To Crave” brought this even more into light for me. What am I craving? I crave an intimate relationship with God. I Crave being able to use my God given talents to achieve the dreams I have had since a little girl of encouraging and helping people reach their own potential. I also crave healthy relationships with family and friends.
When I am craving cheese, bread, or even just pigging out on potato chips, I am only feeding that little girl inside who was abandoned by her birth father and being different than her birth family that they have in some ways rejected her. I am thankful that God has provided me with The Coons who raised me up from 13 and accepted me as their own child and their sister. I’m thankful that I have some friends who are like my sisters. I’m not alone. I am accepted. I crave being able to accept myself, with all my conditions and all my frailties and disabilities.
I encourage every woman in my life to pick up a copy of “Made To Crave” by Lysa Terkeurst, because every single woman I know is on a diet or something that they cannot accept or love about themselves. This book will help you love yourself and crave God.