Musings

Joy is the human beings noblest act. Thomas Aquinas Joy is something I am learning to acknowledge and to appreciate in my life. Many things bring me joy, snuggling with my cat Nicholas, reading amazing books, an amazing unexpected conversation with a neighbor,...

Wounds

I am still dealing with a painful belly wound that is located at my belly button. It is a big gaping hole; the surgical assistant stuck a Q-tip inside of the wound to see how far it can go and to check out how it is doing. Ouch! The white gunk that is coming out is...

Weightloss!

“A Course In Weight Loss” Marianne Williamson Williamson looks at weight loss and health in a spiritual way. Loving you, before you can shed the pounds she believes and is probably correct you must learn to live in love with the body you have now being a fat ass and...

Hungry: A Review

“Hungry” Dr. Robyn L. Smith What I learned from reading this book is nothing new for me, but a reminder of what I have learned on my own journey with my disease. Her disease is different than mine, but we shared the shame unmasking of what was projected upon us from...

Getting To Know You!

I have had the tune “Getting To Know You” from the Yul Brenner’s movie “The King and I” with Maureen O’Hara from the late 50’s early 60’s stuck in my head. I am getting to know my stomach again. I used to know my stomach well, but that all changed when I had my...

This Will Pass

I am struggling today, Monday January 28th with pain that does not allow me to get comfortable in any position. I know this is a part of the healing process of the surgery I just experienced Tuesday the 22nd of January. I tried laying on my back, still hurt, then on...

Resting

Yesterday I spent the entire day relaxing in order for my body to heal. I also took a water pill and been peeing a lot in order to get the water retention gone from my body. I see the evidence in my right foot and I hate seeing my foot swollen. It is ugly. I retain...

Atomic Bomb!

Monday January 21st around 8 PM I felt like I had an atomic bomb explode in my stomach. The pain was excruciating. I have never experienced anything to that caliber in my life and believe me I have experienced a lot of painful things. After suffering until about 10:45...

Challenges

Yesterday was a challenging day, actually the whole week was. Every single day I had something to do and even today I have something to do. I am tired, but I feel good at the same time about what I am accomplishing. It is a bit of a contradiction, but sometimes things...

Attack Of The Stones

I am home from Longview. I enjoyed my trip and time away. I am exhausted, but feeling good. I will be going to Longview every three weeks to be the secretary of Living Ministries and to see my family and friends while I am there. My hope, my new quest is to move back...

My Heart Still Beats

I am in Longview. I got here yesterday evening after my doctor appointment. I got my heart results. The good news, my heart is healthy, the correct size, the valves are open, and I am pumping correctly. The heart rate going up while I am walking around is due to my...

Doctor Appointment 1

“It is God’s will that we do all in our power to keep ourselves strong, for happiness is everlasting and pain is passing and will end. Therefore it is not God’s will that we pine and mourn over feelings of pain but that we get better and continue to enjoy life.”...

Believe

A short post from me today. I will be having a busy week. Three doctor appointments in one week. This morning I am seeing my Otolarnygologist this morning. If you don’t know what that is, they specialize in ears, nose, and throat sometimes they are referred as...

Italian Rice

When I was a kid I knew that my mom was in a great mood when she would make this rice casserole dish that she called Italian Rice. I do not know much about it; all I know is that it is yummy. The way she made it was bad for you. She used beef instead of ground turkey...

A Hero’s Journey

Healing Multiple Sclerosis: A Hero’s Journey by Karen Gordon Even though I do not have Multiple Sclerosis I still do have an illness that the doctors have given me no hope for a cure and only hope to become disabled. I can relate to the feelings that you feel when you...

Loving My Body

I have been taught by my family, the church I grew up in, and even society to hate my body. With my birth family my mom would often say some horrid things to me about my body, make me feel guilty for even being a lovely girl. Then I got with my adoptive family after...

Inspiration

I love how God works in my life. Yesterday morning while awaiting the arrival of my care-giver I went down to the recreational room of my apartment building to use the Wi-Fi and I met a lady who has Macular degeneration an eye disease that only allows a person to see...

Mustard Seed

“The kingdom of heaven is like a grain of mustard seed, which a man took and sowed in his field. Of all the seeds it is the smallest, but when it has grown it is the largest of the garden herbs and becomes a tree, so that birds of the air come and find shelter in its...

I Am Listening!

“Painful experiences are not meant to linger. They are meant to teach us what they need to teach us, and then dissolve into the realm of soft-focus memory.” Marianne Williamson Our bodies are amazing creations. One thing I have learned over the years is it can absorb...

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