Gunk

I clean out the gunk of my trach a lot. That is part of my regiment of the day, taking it out, letting it soak in peroxide, reinserting the extra trach in, and then cleaning out the gunk in the used one. It is a gross process, but that is something I am continually...

Divine Purpose

“You have to be willing to consider that, regardless of the trauma, there is a divine purpose that moves in tandem with every even in your life, painful and joyful.” Carolyn Myss I would love to be assured that the trauma’s that I have suffered in the last four years...

One Milestone

Another mile stone that is happening on my journey is that I can now put my Jaxton trach into the stoma without needing the mirror to guide me. I also learned the value of lube in making sliding the sucker in easier for me. Considering that I have had my trach or some...

Musings From My Closet

I woke up with a new sense of needing to get some things done, so I did. I tackled my closet. I have a huge closet with shelves that make organizing easy. With the trach I have accumulated several extra trachs, suction catheters, gloves, water fishes, sterile water,...

My Reasons

I woke up this morning with a question roaming in my mind. I knew the question was from God. He often times does that to me, gives me a question that I need to answer so that I know why I am choosing to walk this journey I am on. The question you might be asking...

Boundaries

Luke 8: 19-21 “Then Jesus’ mother and his brothers came along toward Him, but they could not get to Him because of the crowd. And it was told to Him, Your mother and your brothers are standing outside desiring to have an interview with You. But He answered them. My...

Seeds

Please read Luke 8:5-15 “Those along the traveled road are the people who have heard; then the devil comes and carries away the message out of their hearts, that they may not believe (acknowledge Me as their Savior and devote themselves to Me) and be saved. And those...

Not Giving Up!

“Give up being a pessimist. Give up thinking life owes you anything. Give up being lazy and wishing things were easier all the time. In short, give up wishing your life were other than the way it is and do something with the life you have.” Carolyn Myss Time for me to...

Merry Christmas!

Celebrating Christmas is not something I normally do, but this year was a bit different for me. Christmas Eve I went to a candle light service where the congregation sang “Silent Night”, “Away In A Manger”, and “Joy To The World” all Christmas songs that I remember...

Swollen, But Hopeful

Walking down the hallway towards the rec room I felt my body communicating its struggle to breathe, heart racing, difficulty in getting oxygen in the lungs as I moved my body, and a slower than usual pace all leads me to the conclusion that my inflammation is back...

Doubt

Matthew 11: 2-5 This morning in my time with God I read about doubt. John the Baptist had doubt about Jesus being the ONE. He asked Jesus: “Are You the One who has to come or should we keep on expecting a different one?” I have never fully absorbed this part of the...

Yummy Food!

Lentil Soup Day Jamie’s Ever Changing Lentil Soup: 1 Cup of Lentils 3 to 4 carrots chopped 1 red onion chopped (or any type of onion you desire) 1 whole zucchini chopped 1 cup frozen peas 1 cup of mushrooms chopped 2 whole tomatoes chopped 1 package of Pacific Pride...

Be Still My Beating Heart!

Wednesday morning I went to the Legacy Good Samaritan to get an Echo Cardiogram done of my heart. I got to see and hear my own heart, what an experience that was. I woke up with not wanting to get up. I wanted to stay curled up in my bed sleeping with my cat. I forced...

A New Perspective

A comment that one of my longtime friends said has been rattling around in my head. “I regret introducing Monte to you because of the way you and he interacted. He would rip you to shreds and you would take it.” She is correct with what she said, but by no means...

Rainy Days And Mondays!

“I now know what it is to feel as vulnerable as a human being can feel. I was ready to become dependent on others’ care, which, for someone as independent as I am, was no comfort. Having to say if this what I must accept, so be it, can feel like chewing glass, but not...

Praise My Lord

“All praise be yours, my Lord, through all that you have made, and first my Lord Brother Sun, who brings the day; and light you give to use through him. How beautiful he is, how radiant in all his splendor! All praise be yours, my Lord through Sister Moon and Stars;...

A Year In Review

I had an opportunity to view my timeline on Face Book. It opened my eyes to the fact that I had been through a lot in 2012. Six surgeries, getting a caregiver, learning to live with a trach and then a t-tube in my throat, doing the Christmas Angel Telethon, and...

A New Challenge!

Another step towards my healing I am wearing a turquoise blue heart monitor. The reason you may be wondering is because when I had my chemo treatment on November 13th, 2012 a month ago to be exact. I started having heart palpitations and went to the ER. I remember...

My Getaway!

I am going on a mini-getaway and won’t be back until next Thursday. I will be going to the Christmas Angel Telethon on Saturday; a 24 hour event to raise money for the Salvation Army that Living Ministries is putting on. Then for three days I will be spending some...

The Horse Boy

On November 30th while driving up to Seattle for my medical appointment at the University of Washington my sister in law and I listened to “The Horse Boy” by Rupert Isaacson on CD. I thoroughly enjoyed the story, so much so that I borrowed the discs from my SIL so...

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